Diary Survivor 4 - contestants blog

2003-04-21T19:23:00.000-07:00

This thingy sucks.

2003-01-10T00:31:00.000-08:00

Time enough for a last hurrah, folks: everybody post! *wheeee!*

2002-12-20T18:16:00.000-08:00

I am bored. EXTREMELY bored.

I am going to wrap Christmas presents and stuff stockings. When I come back, I expect these here boards to be hopping, dammit.

I have posted two fun links in my diary. Go read, come back, discuss.

2002-12-19T14:11:00.000-08:00

Work is the Hell they preach about in bible school! I am so freakin' busy and it just ain't right, dagnabbit. I shall Aim again! Probably tonight while watching 3 hours of Survivor. I'm waiting for the town council to see if porn star Brian's nose is all crooked after his wife clocked him one in the beak! Very excited about that actually.

2002-12-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

I am here, but you are away. I see how you are, Mister. :snoot:

2002-12-19T05:51:00.000-08:00

Where have all my AIM chat peeps gone? It's friggin' lonely in the office now that the students have left for the break... Angeline? M? Raw? Anybody? Helloooo!!!

2002-12-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

you totally deserved it. i think women everywhere with asswhole dads totally empathize with your entry. that includes me. anyway, glad you broke your vow. i say we reclaim the blog...

2002-12-13T21:39:00.000-08:00

Oh my god! I'm stoned on codeine, and sick to my stomach, but I SCREAMED when I saw the results!

Thank you for your congrats, Raw! I'm so excited I'm breaking my vow to never post in this again!

*delight*

Bed now, I think.

--angeline

2002-12-13T19:19:00.000-08:00

congrats ange!

2002-12-13T10:50:00.000-08:00

apparently big booby quizzes aren't the way to go about getting it.

2002-12-13T06:34:00.000-08:00

this blog needs more life!

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2002-12-10T17:27:00.000-08:00

Now he's apparently speaking for the contestants:

> Of course, she forgot to note that as far as the Survivors were concerned, it all
> started on the 27th October when LoudWoman posted GingerBug's e-mail on
> the Contestants' blog.

Whatta tool.

2002-12-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

This just proves that Telutci must me Scourge. I mean, could it be any more obvious?

2002-12-07T21:27:00.000-08:00

Many thanks for the congrats! I'm glad I was finally able to fine-tune the Vulcan mind-meld to work. The first two attempts resulted in me sounding eerily like Ethel Merman. Third time's a charm! :-)

2002-12-07T21:23:00.000-08:00

congrats on the win matt ... your seamless transition into racermike deserved reward!

p.s. thank you mariel ...

2002-12-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

I didn't even know paperclips came in flavors! Here I've been using the plain metal ones all along. Hmm, learn something new every day.

2002-12-05T11:38:00.000-08:00

Questions Matt! I have questions!!! Ribbed? Strawberry flavoured? Glow In the Dark? Leopard pattern?

2002-12-05T09:19:00.000-08:00

All I've got is a paperclip, a movie ticket stub, and a condom wrapper. Sorry, rough night.

2002-12-05T09:18:00.000-08:00

Anyone got change for a twenty? And gum! I could use some gum. Yeesh. Rough crowd.

2002-12-02T18:52:00.000-08:00

My honest to goodness last contestant blog post. I want to apologize to telucti and meg for all the fallout they're getting from idgits who paint everyone w/the same brush and need to make everyone choose sides. There's no sides. I'm a jerk who can't resist putting 'kick me' signs on pompous backs. Gingerbug is a jerk who likes to play victim and take to the fainting couch. But we're both jerks, I'm not kidding myself.
And I'll always be a jerk, more or less. And I'll always make fun of stuff I think is asinine.
QH and I were trying to remember how this shit all started....
lw':I think it started because we were goofing on the contestants in Open City and someone followed a link, then posted it in the contestant blog. But how did crazybug start? The only thing I can think is my exit interview w/genis dong where I said I voted for her both times because her diary was too orange and she lacked whimsy.'

QH:That was pretty much it... you were giving your impressions of
other diarists and linking. And right about then two things
happened: 1) GB posted the death = rape analogy about that IC
challenge, and 2) the same day she had her post up about her
melodramatic fear of eating in public.

We poked a little fun at both of those bits, but by then she was
already reading - and that's when the deluge of goth Defenders
of Crazybug hit the board, and when I started getting the letters
from Allen...'

And that's how it started. Believe it or not. We were making fun on our board we've had in one form or another for 3 years and the Popular Diarists got hurt.

With that, I apoligize to Tel and Meg, say DRINKSOMEMILKSALLY! to the Popular Diarists and bid you all a fond farewell.

Y'all should post in here and enjoy the rest of the contest now that us jerks are gone.

2002-11-29T13:47:00.000-08:00

My greatest wish is that everyone would just let it go away. And by everyone I don't actually mean Ginger and Kim, I mean the viewers who have been getting into this and making it their business. While I understand the motivation behind it, THAT is really what I see more than anything as keeping this whole mess going.

It's irritated me to the end that this is my last post on the contestant's blog, and the last time I intend to view it. Or the guestbook. I am going to play the game, and talk to people in IM, and that's it.

I am siding with no one, and I just wish it would stop. There. I said it. I vowed I never would but the guestbook is really snarking on my last nerve. I seriously don't think it is Kim and Ginger having trouble letting this go--it's the viewers, who are being just as nasty to people as they claim the "perpetrators" are being. Tit for tat is not always right, and in fact, to me, it is downright annoying. I dislike the self-righteous. And this is only my take on it, my opinion, which may or may not be wrong, but it's mine.

Please, simmer down, and to the other remaining folks, let's do our best to buckle down and enjoy this thing!
*hugs all around*

2002-11-29T12:31:00.000-08:00

jesus mary'n joseph maybe we should rename this to "kim and ginger idiot-fest" or something. christ you two need to just email each other instead of posting such inane crap here. and i believe that if anything kim you seem to be the drama/attentionwhore in here and not ginger, she stopped really posting until you started up more shite. time to delete the 'favorite' link.

2002-11-28T01:19:00.000-08:00

Sinnamon posted:

"I am not sure why GB passworded her diary. I can understand her need to separate RL from online, but why not take the site down instead since that is the part you are worried about. Or take out your real name where it is referenced. I am guessing that she is worried about her readers getting over to the other site, but don't most of them know all the information that is posted there already? Why the concern, please explain it to me?
posted by sinnamon at 2:32 AM

I will be happy to explain, (though it should really be obvious). By posting that info and subsequently using my real name in connection with Gingerbug, you have taken away the semi-anonymity I had with my online diary. I don't care about the traffic from gingerbug to whatever else I do on the Net, but the reason I passworded was that there are people who could be coming in the other direction from the other sites to Gingerbug that I'd rather not share such intimate details with.

2002-11-27T23:58:00.000-08:00

Thank you, Kitchenlogic for the comments in my guestbook and on the judges blog. Thank you also those who IM'd me last night. Edna: thank you too. I haven't asked anyone to say anything on my behalf, though a whole bunch of people have offered.

Kim, I really don't understand what I could have possibly done to deserve all this. That's one crucial bit you have failed to give an answer to. I never gave you and your friends reason for this months long campaign.

If I had known that joining a simple online game would indirectly lead to me having to lock up the diary, I certainly wouldn't have joined.

As for the accusations, IP details etc, etc - just because I signed sinnamon's guestbook leaving behind the router IP doesn't 'prove' all the wild things you suggest it does. This issue is not black and white, I agree and those whom I trust have been able to read my account of the events (in the diary at present). I haven't had any previous experience with flamers or stalkers, so unfortunately that hasn't helped. I would give you a full account of the events here, but 1. you would still twist it and yak at me for playing the victim 2. most people don't care about the details anymore (if they ever did) and can see things for themselves. 3. those whom I trust can read it where it belongs.

Let me put it this way:

You started something unimaginably childish and cruel for NO reason.

I ignored it to the best of my ability UNTIL you and your friends started posting copyrighted material on that board. Even then I didn't publicly do anything - just quietly emailed the host. Well, you know the rest: it was your actions that continued to drag me through mud because you chose to post all the emails in public. I would rather have kept a very low profile and let things settle.

You shat on this contest, the players, judges and organisers by making this all about you. You posted on the blog repeatedly about things that had nothing to do with the game.

Even when you publicly said it was 'over', you, telutci, uber, sinnamon - and even Meg from diaryland survivor were in fact members of the Yahoo Club you created specifically for the purpose of continuing your campaign. I didn't know about it until I was told - at the time, I was taking a break from diaryland to try and think about what to do with everything.

And so on and so on.

I don't personally have anything to hide, but there are reasons which leave me no option, but to re-shuffle everything now that you have stripped me of anonymity. I am upset and feel sick to the stomach over this, yes. I'm going to re-open gingerbug sometime in the next couple of days, but it will be used very differently to how it has been so far. The real diary will be elsewhere. You can't stop me from writing, but you have successfully caused a lot of hurt, frustration, wasted time and hassle for me and the readers who have followed along on the journey.

Am I playing the victim? I don't think so, I'm just stating how I feel. I received this note within minutes of locking up: "Just noticed that you are locked....bummer. Found you back in July after my fiance attempted suicide--your posts on your mom helped me out. Hope you are doing well...and if you unlock yourself (or care to share the pwd) let me know. Take care... ". I've had several messages like it since. I never wanted to write in public for personal attention, I wanted to write in public for this. You will no doubt found something wrong in that too.

Yes, I asked why you thought I was Scourge. Well, as far as I can tell, no-one called Scourge has actually ever posted at Open City. Why not check Scourge's IP? He has posted all over the place. My IP to that router and the IP of three usernames (?) from that board match. I know why that is, but you will have to read it from my diary to know. I have never sent anyone on that board, I have never posted on that board and no-one (to my knowledge) has hacked your board. I have not asked Edna, Disco, Gwen, Trin - or anyone to do anything on my behalf. 99% of the stuff you accuse me of is in fact stuff you are or have been doing. Such as attention seeking, for instance. Or checking IP addresses. (Just a couple of examples).

Anyway. I am really really sorry about the d-survivor contest. I apologise for discussing this stuff here in the Blog.

2002-11-27T21:24:00.000-08:00

Holy fuck am I ever fucking glad I'm no longer in this contest.