10.05.2002
I told TheBoy about this just now.
Me: "Mine's 'Play with me.' I think that's fitting."
TheBoy: "I don't know if I like the sound of that..."
Me: "Not that kind of play! Jesus!"
I'll catch up on the rest later.
I want to play a little warm-up game. Anyone with me? (I know this might seem silly, but stick with me...). Since most of us have been reading each other's diaries now, could you summarise each diary into one sentence? Nothing serious, mind - just for fun. Here are mine:
Alternamommy - "Live with me"
Angeline-is - "Follow me"
Chrome Magnum Man - "Watch me"
Hardrain - "Feel with me.
July - "Admire me"
Kinetix - "Understand me"
Loudwoman - "Fear me"
Magpie - "Play with me"
Matt - "Envy me"
Ms-m - "Love me"
Raw - "Hear me"
Scud - "Leave me"
Okay, now it's your go. Or you could just scratch your heads and decide that I've totally 'lost it'.
Anyway, I'm off to Starbucks for a white chocolate and strawberry muffin and a tall Mocha. My Saturday treat. Yumm!
10.04.2002
First off I haven't been avoiding the Blog, in case any of you where wondering. I hate to admit this, but I didn't even know about this until I saw I had a hit from it. Then when I went to check it out, read everyone's entries on here. For the life of me I couldn't figure out how to post a message. Where the hell is that little button that says "post new" or "post now" or "hey, asshole, its right here."
Well after a few questions and some complications it turned out I wasn't even part of the group cause my e-mail aparently has decided to take the week off when it comes to DS4 messages. Didn't even leave me post note or anything to let me know I'm on my own....damn hotmail.
Ok I guess this is where I give you all some personal information about myself so you feel to sorry for me to boot me off the first week.....yeah,one can only hope.
Well first off I'm 26 and will be 27 the day before DS4 offically starts.
I have a years worth of community college under my belt which I've sort of pissed away so far because I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my life. Ok so thats not completly true because I know what I want. The key to it is can I get it? When I was eight tell I was like fourteen I wanteded to be a lawyer. Something about it just apealed to me. The last couple years of that I decided to expand it a little to lawyer/political scientest. Then one day I looked at how much schooling that would take and where my life would go in that field and said fuck that....to much. Thats about the time I figured out how much I loved mechanical and architectual drafting and spent all four years of high school taking classes that pertained to this field. Even taking two my junior year and a three hour college prep course my senior year which resulted in college credits. After that something clicked in me and said "this really isn't what I want to end up being for the rest of my life." Sure I loved doing it, but the idea of doing it for a living made for a very bleak future for me. Then I moved on to computer science/programing courses while in college, but yet again this didn't seem to be "me". Through all this I retained one love that goes back earlier then I can remember. I loved writing, I wanted to be a writer, it felt right deep inside to think of myself as a "writer".
I have no pets because for the last sixteen years or so I've lived in "no pets allowed" apartments. Though I miss having a dog or a cat around greatly. Grew up in a big, two story house when I was a kid and always had a cat and/or a dog back then. I miss those days.
I'm nostalgic about my life dealing with everything that happened before the age of eight years old. After that shit went down hill.
I was once really shy...hell pretty much still can be in certain situations. During my entire high school life I wouldn't be suprised if I said less then one sentence a day. After that repression I seemed to come out of my shell. Since then I seem to keep people laughing and feeling comfortable in my presence. Hell I don't even know why, but that just seems to be the way it is.
I'm not easily "truely" angered. I seem to be able to take a lot of shit before exploding or going off on someone or something. Though apparently its a frightening sight to see me truelly angry. Which I don't know if it truely is, but I know I fear and hate ever being that angry.
Well I'd write more, but I'm long winded ass hell and have already written a ton of shit.
Oh one last thing about the instant messenger thing. Right now I only have MSN working on this computer because I seem to have to many complications with other instant messenger ever since I've had to completely reformat the hard drive. Either way I think I'm up, on average, exceptionally later then the rest of you so pretty much I wouldn't see any of you on there even if I did have AIM or Yahoo.
Alright....
I'm gone.
Side note: I'm not sure if this is what Scud was saying or not, because I am computer unsavvy, but you can use AIM Express without having AOL, and it works through firewalls. Go to www.aim.com, like Scud said, and then click AIM express. Voila, IM at work. :)
I kid, for I am a kidder. I won't stalk any of you, though. I learned my lesson from the last time...
10.03.2002
About the hostility towards contestants - well, there certainly is some around, mostly harmless cases of 'sour grapes'. For the dude that linked all of us and made a sarky comment about Scud it's probably a case of not realising just how the contestants were selected (i.e. - not just based on the application form) and he just seems to feel a bit bitter. His diary is quite new, not even 100 entries. He just needs to try again next time! (And no, those other methods weren't sexual favours to the judges, as someone else has already suggested! Or maybe we could perpetuate that myth here....oh yes, I got it on with at least THREE judges......NOT!) As for Jenn, hmm, I didn't take the message (in my case left in the comments section) as being abusive, that's probably because I reckon [and I could be wrong of course!] that she is just one of these really intense people who often get themselves into trouble and fights and don't understand how they got there. You know the kind? I think she probably really, really wanted in and now she is hoping to get herself noticed so that she'd get picked next time. Unfortunately it's the way she sometimes expresses herself that seems to land her in the shit. But hey, I'm just speculating. Plus she seems to get into these 'dilemmas' with exactly the wrong kind of people - the ones who love to be provoked for a bit of tongue-lashing *winks at Kinetix*.
I have to admit, when I first saw DiarySurvivor (way back when it was brand spanking new) I thought: 'oh, what a nifty idea, but I'll never have the time to do it. Besides, my diary writing shouldn't be interrupted with something that doesn't follow the original reason for starting one - i.e. therapeutic introspection'. Whoops? Does anyone else feel a bit nauseous at themselves for 'letting' their diary be 'taken over' for the contest?
And I too got a guestbook message from Jenn, which did seem a bit bitter and that surprised me, because I remember being listed on her favorites list in the past. Well...life goes on, and there will be another Survivor. I think I got tagged for a posting because I had said I would never, ever sign up for this, but then I did, and then I got in. I imagine that might be a bit rankling to some. But whatever. *shrugs cheerfully*
theepiphany@mac.com
I'll choose to take that as a compliment. :D
the rest of you are on Eastern or Central time. Any other West Coasters in the contest?
10.02.2002
A message has been sent to SatanBoy75 asking for permission for you to add him or her as your friend.
Would you like to enter nickname or add more information for this user?
This is cute in a grade-school kind of way, but I thought this was more analagous to a buddy list on
Diaryland. What did I just do? :)
Also, you should all be aware of this:
(iii) USE THE YAHOO SOFTWARE WHILE DRIVING, BIKING, BOATING, OPERATING
HEAVY MACHINERY OR ENGAGING IN ANY OTHER POTENTIALLY HAZARDOUS
ACTIVITY. YOU UNDERSTAND THAT DEATH, PERSONAL INJURY, OR PROPERTY
DAMAGE MAY RESULT FROM USE OF THE YAHOO SOFTWARE WHILE ENGAGED
IN THESE ACTIVITIES;
So no Yahoo! Messengering me while you're driving your boat, ok?
First of all, I'm AlternaMommy, but it's okay if you call me by my real name which is Joanna. I'm 28, a military wife and stay at home mom to two children: Katherine is 8 and Domenic is 6. Both my children have been diagnosed as having some form of bipolar disorder, Kate having some OCD issues, Dom being more ADD. So that occupies a lot of my time and mental energy, and my diary is sort of a release for the tensions that come with trying to parent two high need children.
I've always been a stay at home mom, which I do feel is somewhat of my calling, but I'm at a crossroads in my life where I'm not quite sure what comes next. My kids are in school full time this year and for the first time in a long time, I have half a moment to think about myself and that is both really exhilirating and terrifying at the same time.
A lot of minor trivia about me can be found in my AlternaMommy 101 entry so I won't bore you with the details here and now. I will say that I am a loyal person, I tend to give the benefit of the doubt, and have recently learned life is way to short to hold grudges.
Also, at the risk of sounding like a complete and total PollyAnna, I'm just thrilled to be involved in this. The more I read your diaries, the more I feel really blessed to be in this little contest, because, like everyone else, I never thought I'd be in it. To be totally honest, I thought there would be at least one or two diarist with whom I had nothing in common, and reading those diaries would be a chore. But to my delight, I find that I'm truely enjoying reading everyone's journals and finding many common threads among us. I admit, I am somewhat disturbed at how exciting this is for me, and this is the only group who would even remotely understand.
Sorry for the long ramble. :)
I'm 26. I'll be 27 soon.
I live in New York State, and I work full time in residence life at a university, which I never name because I fear google searches connecting me to my diary. (If you talked about your coworkers the way I talk about mine, you'd understand.)
I live alone. My fish all died. My plants died. My furby died. My sims are still alive, though. I'm not dating anyone.
I think I signed up for some other blog once before, or else someone already took my name.
More information about me is available in my Cast link on my diary. I'm not sure what else people want to know.
Also, Gingerbug pointed out the error in my diary, which I see every time the page loads, too, but I am not html savvy, and do not know how to repair it or even how to tell what, exactly, it is. (I looked at the link you left me, Ginger, but it was like sanskrit. I just didn't understand.) If anyone was willing to help, I would be profusely, gushingly grateful.
I've tried to add people to my AIM, but I keep getting a message that says something like 'buddy list not available, try again later'. Basically, every time I've tried to use AIM, there has been some problem. Bah. So, I've created a new Yahoo ID just for this contest - if anyone would like to download Yahoo messenger and chat, please do add me: SurvivorBug. I believe everyone here should have a Yahoo ID anyway as we all had to sign up for the Diaryland Survivor Yahoo group. Just download, install and get online. Do you guys ever use diaryland chat? It's a bit up and down, but when it's available, there's usually some fun going on.
now onto real business. you may have noticed that this blog now has a spiffy customized layout! this is because i worked my buttox off to make it for you because i love you all so much. everything seems to be working fine to me, but if you have any problems, questions, comments, suggestions, etc, you can either email me, or instant message me. i'd be glad to help!
again, congratulations, and good luck!
10.01.2002
contest starts when I've got 10 different things going on.
Aaaaaah! Too much writing! Brain full!
Quick stats are in my diary entry for yesterday. Once my brain stops swimming around this is
going to be really fun. :D
-18 year old female living with my mom in Atlanta, Georgia
-Veterinairy assistant at an animal hospital. A job that I absolutely love. Yeah, I am the weirdo who actually loves their job and just can't wait to go to work every day.
-I suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder. It became so severe that I had to drop out of school in my sophomore year, and I thought that it was the end of my dreams of being a vet. I have since taken my GED, scored exceptionally well, and plan to start college this winter.
-I am a lesbian. I don't particularly like being defined by who I fall in love with, but there it is.
-I love sci-fi/fantasy books. Dragons and unicorns being very high on my list. I've always been a bit of a dreamer.
-I have 5 dogs, 4 cats, a bird, and a horse. What can I say, I love animals..or maybe I am just crazy.
I guess that's it.
- currently 21 and living at home [yea yea i know, it sucks] mostly because i dont' have the money to get an apartment and frankly my mom's cooking kicks ass.
- i work as a waiter for a restaurant on the weekends. go to school the rest of the weekdays and dislike almost every class. that's what happens when you drop out of art school and move back home i guess.
- work [ok volunteer] on the side for a pretty popular video game [counter-strike] that i've been a part since the early days and am good friends with the creator.
- i've always lived in the same house in suburban northern va [about 15 minutes outside of dc]
- am currently in a relationship with an awesome girl who just happens to live up in boston so it makes trips up and down interesting as to how often they are.
- i'm one of the biggest football [ie, the real football aka soccer] fans around, and thus a lot of my outings deal with going to small bars and paying 10 dollars to see a live match that i can't find anywhere else. go gunners go! also i'm a sport fanatic, have played soccer since i was 6, lacrosse since 6th grade and street/roller hockey since i was about 10.
- realize i have no idea what else to say about myself so i'll stop.
also i can be found around and online pretty much 24/7 so feel free to im me if you have aim and i think maybe we should pass that info around for those who are on it.
So, you nosey parkers want to know my details, eh?
I'm Angeline. I am a 25 year old female currently living in Texas. I really don't like it here, but I like my boyfriend an awful lot, so I stick around. I did try living in Wisconsin away from him for about eight months, and that wasn't really so bad as far as our relationship goes, but I did have a nervous breakdown because frankly, jobs up there really suck.
I've met my last two boyfriends on the internet; both relationships lasted a good long time--or in this case are still ongoing--so I am a big supporter of internet romance.
I run two somewhat popular sites on Diaryland in addition to my diary. Okay, my Kevin Smith webclique is somewhat popular; OddGoogle is STUPIDLY popular, far exceeding any expectations I ever had and necessitating the hiring of two assistants. When I say stupidly popular, I do mean that in a good way. Perhaps I should have said stupendously popular. Probably several of you have been on it as OddGooglers.
I am what I fondly call a music snob, I am a travel agent, I like airplanes, I have four cats and a ferret, and I really enjoy hamming it up on my webcam when I have the time or inclination to do so.
As many of you might discover to your utter dismay, I am overly fond of puns, a trait I legitimately inherited from my mother.
I am also a self-styled Pop Culture Princess. I have this amazing repository of pop culture knowledge in my head, mostly music related, that was pretty much cultivated in high school when I was the captain of the academic bowl team. It serves absolutely no purpose but to take up space in my brainbox.
I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue and I can unwrap a Starburst in my mouth, just like the TV commercial. I also have a bubble gum wrapper chain. I am a purveyor of useless party tricks.
And that is about it, I think.
1. 25, though i usually tell people 26. my habit of aging myself prematurely probably roots back to my preteen quest for coolness. i'm sure as i get older, that habit will die... or at least, that's what they tell me.
2. a single mother of the cutest lil boy. my son's name is javier (javi) and i am currently in the process of adopting him, though i have been his mama since the second he was born. he will be two in december.
3. a writer, designer, and a teacher. during the day i work at the us epa (a job that is slowly draining the life out of me). at night i teach esl classes at the local community college.
4. currently living with a man, though i dig women just as much. my status will most likely remain "single" on gov't forms, though, as i abhor the idea of marriage.
5. addicted to peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and cheese fries (w/ hot sauce), but rarely get to eat either. therefore, i dream.
6. not always nice. i've been called loud, aggressive, insensitive, and a bitch. however, i wear these monikers with pride as a professor once told me that a woman hasn't made her way in the world until someone hates her. i have to say i usually try to do the right thing, but i guess that's a subjective practice.
7. a north carolinian, though i have spent considerable amounts of time in texas, california, d.c., south carolina, and massachusetts.
8. academically educated. i have a BA in english and women's studies from unc-greensboro and a MA in publishing and writing from emerson college in boston.
9. a sagittarius born in the year of the dragon who loves cats. i am a scorpio moon. my son is a capricorn born in the year of the dragon, though he was supposed to be a sag. i'm still a little pissed about that!
10. of mixed ancestry, class, and sexuality, which means i find myself constantly challenging stereotypes and debating ideologies. this sometimes makes me popular, though more often it casts me out.
11. one of the three products of an alcoholic, drug addicted, codependant relationship/marriage. i'll let your imagination take care of that one.
so. i can't think of much else that wouldn't be too boring or mundane. i'm off to find out more about y'all now. i can't wait to know each of you! ~raw
Anyhoo - here are my 'quick facts':
- Female
- 30 (April 2002)
- Finnish by nationality, but has lived in UK for 10 years
- Marital status: HAHA....I mean - I'm separated (the separation happened years and years ago) and am finally going through divorce. Meanwhile, I've been in a steady relationship with a wonderful computer geek for about two years and we are currently in the process of buying a house
- I work as a software training officer and a webmaster
- I write for two amateur publications and run a bazillion web projects
- I'm a registered illustrator (this is such a fun thing to say, I'm still getting used to the idea!)
- I love fantasy, sci-fi and especially dragons
- I'm a cat person
- I own a motorbike, but don't know how to drive it yet
- I'm a 'closet Goth'
- I suffer from phobia of vomiting (emetophobia) and panic disorder and have had more than my fair share of knock-backs and tragedy in life. Sometimes this makes me a bit too serious and inward-looking. Sometimes this makes me too tired to take shit from people. Life is too short and precious to waste it on assholes.
- If I have a problem with you, you'll hear it to your face - I never back-stab or hold grudges.
- I can come across as a bit cold and arrogant, but it's not intentional
- I've rambled for too long
In response to Gingerbug's request, here are my vital stats:
I'm a twenty-two (soon to be twenty-three) year-old guy currently living in Lexington, KY. I grew up in a military family and have lived in West Virginia (where my family originally is from), Germany, D.C., Washington state before my parents finally settled on the Bluegrass state. I have my BA in Psychology from the University of Kentucky and currently work at the university as a horribly underpaid but pleasant administrative assistant. I live with one roommate, Jackson, a completely spoiled kitten in a cramped efficiency apartment on the outskirts of campus. In my free time I criticise celebrity fashion on TV and play the guitar.
It's everyone else's turn now!
I have looked at all the other contestants' diaries, but at least with some, it was difficult to determine *who* was writing (just at a first glance, that is. I'm sure reading the whole diary would answer that question). That's why, just as we're getting started, may I put forward an idea? How about, we all post a little vital statistics-list of ourselves in this blog so we can get to know each other? Not forgetting the publicity-stunt value for the 'viewers' of D-survivor :)
